I've Got a "Secret" for You

Yesterday my mom and I were talking about positive thinking, again. She really thinks that if you focus enough on what you want to happen and truly believe that it will happen, then it will. She keeps telling me that the reason nothing good ever happens to me is because I don't believe it will. Here's the problem with that; I live in a fucking fantasy world. I spend an inordinate amount of time imagining what my life could be. I think of something that I wish would happen and then picture what life would be like if it did happen. This is not something I do on purpose, it's sort of automatic. Sometimes I think about these things so intently, and picture them so clearly, that I honestly have trouble remembering whether they actually happened or not. So yeah, if positive thinking worked I'm pretty sure my life would be very different.