Hermits United

I often find myself torn between a desire to connect with other people and the idea that I would be better off living in a shack in the woods or something. Every once in a while I actually do enjoy being around other people (It was great catching up with you the other day, Rachel!) but, for the most part, I just don't like social situations. I always have these ideas about how things will go and they almost always fall far short of my expectations. I keep thinking that if I could learn to be more outgoing or get to know more people that my life would be better but I have found that, most of the time, I am more comfortable and  happier(?) being alone. I keep trying to force myself to go do things and be around people in the hopes that someday I'll get used to it and learn to enjoy the company of others, but I'm starting to think I am just putting myself through extreme awkwardness and discomfort for no reason. I'm not sure I am ever going to like being social, and maybe I really would be better off just spending as little time around other humans as possible.