I got my first check from my new/old job today! I had almost forgotten how good it feels to have money. It's not like it's a lot because I'm not working very many hours, but still. It feels nice to know that, at least for the next few days until I spend it all, I can buy stuff I need without having to go deeper in debt by putting it on my fucking credit card. Also (fingers crossed) maybe I'll actually be able to pay off my credit card someday. Who knows, I might even be able to afford to go places and do things. It's even possible that I could get an actual life. But, then again, you know what they say "Money can't buy social skills."