I feel like I have gotten a little too good at being by myself. I've always been this extremely socially awkward, weird person but I used to at least try to be better. I haven't been doing that lately. I kind of just decided to get used to being alone a lot, and now I kind of like it. I find that I have lost my tolerance for social interaction. I always was uncomfortable in social situations, but I used to try to be social anyway because I thought it was worth it. Now I just dread ever being around people at all. Yet, there is still part of me that thinks "Oh, someday I'll meet someone I truly connect with." But that's fucking stupid! How in the fuck am I ever going to connect with anyone if I refuse to associate with anyone. Damn you brain! You don't know what you're talking about!