The Quest for a Decent Pair of Gloves

Remember a few days ago when I was bitching about how I can never seem to find exactly that I'm looking for online? Well, I need a new pair of gloves and I can't find any! I've been wearing the ones I made for quite some time now, and they're falling apart. All I can ever seem to find though are the knitted ones and they're just not practical for warm weather. I thought about buying weight lifting gloves, because they're sort of similar to what I want. Get this though, the men's sizes come in black but the women's sizes are all obnoxiously bright colors. Because, apparently, all women need their workout gear to be neon pink.

I really want some like these ^ and I can't find them anywhere. What really pisses me off is that I've seen several of my favorite characters wearing them, so they have to exist somewhere. Along with Black Widow, Captain America, Max Guevara, and Charles Gunn have all been known to wear gloves like these and I need some! Damn you internet! Where can I find these? and, more importantly, do they come in something other than leather? 

Thanks for Nothing, Survival Instinct

I was thinking today about how much our mindset affects us. I'm not just talking about how it affects our moods or attitudes, but how it actually interferes with our physical abilities. Like how you can do something really well, until you're nervous about it for some reason then you suddenly suck at it. I feel this is a major flaw in the design of the human psyche. The more important something is to us, the more likely we are to fail at it. Who thought that was a good idea?

In case you're wondering why I was thinking about this, it's because today I went up in the woods and was walking across a bunch of fallen trees (again) and I noticed that I'm really good at it when the trees are flat on the ground. If they're off the ground though, I start wondering how injured I would get if I fell off. The odds of it being bad enough to even bother me are slim, but then I start thinking how much it would suck to have to drag my ass off the hill with a broken leg. Plus there's my whole aversion to the medical industry, and it would just be a big mess. Anyway, by the time I think about all that stuff, I'm wobbling back and forth and looking like a fool. Not that it stops me from trying.

My brain keeps trying to tell me it would be like this.

It Can Buy Lots of Other Things Though

I got my first check from my new/old job today! I had almost forgotten how good it feels to have money. It's not like it's a lot because I'm not working very many hours, but still. It feels nice to know that, at least for the next few days until I spend it all, I can buy stuff I need without having to go deeper in debt by putting it on my fucking credit card. Also (fingers crossed) maybe I'll actually be able to pay off my credit card someday. Who knows, I might even be able to afford to go places and do things. It's even possible that I could get an actual life. But, then again, you know what they say "Money can't buy social skills."

Stress Relief

I had fully intended to write another "true love" post, in which I was going to bitch about my remarkably pathetic love life. Then, my mom, my sister, and I went to Cooper's Rock today. For some inexplicable reason climbing around on huge rocks, grape vines, and mostly rotten trees, and risking life and limb for no good reason always makes me feel a little better about my life. So I suppose I will just reserve my bitching for a later date.

True Love (?) Part 2:

As promised, here are some of the reasons why, I think, there are so many unsuccessful relationships.

1- Our society has become too obsessed with weddings. I honestly believe that there are some people who get married simply so they can have a wedding.

2- Divorce is so common now that people get married with the mindset of "Oh well, if it doesn't work out, we'll just get divorced."

3- As a society, we have become pretty fucking selfish and lazy. We want things to be perfect and if they're not, we give up on them.

4- We are impatient. We don't take the time to make sure that we are truly compatible with another person before jumping into a serious relationship.

5- Most people have so much going on their lives that they don't take the time to appreciate their relationships, or to try to make them work.

6- There was a time when life was much more simple. Today, we have so many options in life. The more options we have, the more opportunity we have to grow apart from another person.

7- No matter how hard we try not to, we're all still sort of hoping for that fairy tale.

8- We have short attention spans.

9- At the beginning of a relationship, people tend to only see what they want to see. Then, later, they only see what they don't want to see.

10- I'm not sure how many people will agree with this one, but I think it's pretty important. People need adversity. They need something to overcome. Furthermore, when two people overcome something together, it automatically creates a bond between them. When there are big problems to deal with, all the petty little problems don't seem very important. I think perhaps the relationships that come closest to "true love" are the ones in which the people have to face real struggles together. Not only does something like that make people realize how unimportant the little things are, but it also reminds them that they can count on each other.

Everybody always talks about how Max and Logan still love each other despite everything they've been through and all the things that have tried to keep them apart. I think maybe they love each other because of all that, not in spite of it. Maybe that's just me. 

True Love (?) Part 1: 500th Post

The other day, I asked for suggestions on what I should write about for my 500th post. Well, my dad said he wanted me to write about the idea of "true love." I informed him that I wrote a seven post series about love not long ago, but he still wanted me to. So here goes. I'm honestly not sure if "true love" exists or not. I have seen little hints of it here and there, but mostly it seems like most relationships tend to go to shit after a while.

Do you guys know where the term "soulmates" actually came from? I didn't until recently. In case you are as uninformed about the subject as I was, here's the story. It came from Greek mythology. Supposedly humans used to have four arms, four legs, and two faces. Zeus decided that humans were too powerful and were becoming a threat to the gods. So he split them in two, leaving each person with a deep longing to find the other half of his/her soul. Kind of beautiful, yeah? I also recently saw a theory someone from Tumblr came up with that the atoms that were together at the creation of the universe are drawn back to each other. Therefore, the people made up of those atoms are drawn to each other as well. I find that equally beautiful.

Anyway, I don't know about the whole soulmate thing. It's a really lovely idea, and sort of comforting to those of us who don't have the best luck with relationships "Oh, it's okay. I just haven't met my soulmate yet." Sounds a lot better than "I'm just unlovable." Unfortunately, I find it much more likely that the success or failure of a relationship depends much more on the attitudes of the people involved and, perhaps even more so, on the circumstances around them. I think tomorrow I'll talk about all the reasons I think so many relationships fail these days. Also, here's a cute little cartoon depicting the Greek myth.

Almost Like an Adult........Almost

I've been back working at the chiropractor's office for a couple of weeks now. It's kind of nice to not feel like a complete piece of shit, mooching off of other people. Even though that's still basically what I am, seeing as how about half of the appointments I was supposed to have since I've been back have cancelled. Oh well, at least I'm doing something, and bringing in a little bit of money. Also, I've actually been getting up early and keeping up with stuff around the house. We haven't even run out of clean clothes or clean dishes for the last two weeks! Now if I could just figure out this whole "social life" thing, I might actually feel like a real person. Sort of.